Well as you all know in my
first post, my mom has a lung disease. Well 2 years ago this November
she got put in the hospital again and sent to Barns Jewish in St. Louis,
well it turns out she did not have pulmonary fibrosis but she had Pulmonary veno-occlusive disease and they've never had anyone make it past 2 years which is would explain her sudden downfall.
She got put in the hospital on the 12th of September then recently transferred to St. Louis again. She's been put on the vent and from what I heard from Kayla and Dilyan. The other night her blood pressure got deadly high, which made her heart skip off beat so they had to shock her to get it back in rhythm. Then they found unexplained bleeding in her stomach they are running labs and have her as stable as they can make her. Dilyan said the doctor told him that it was important that family be up there.
That hit me really hard, and I'm kind of at a cross roads. I love my mom and would never want something to happen to her. But I know that she's tired of fighting this and has told us kids she's ready to be home with her grandpa,and God. Hearing her say that is like a knife to the heart, I hate seeing her suffer and only want peace for her, yet I'm feeling selfish and don't want her to go yet. She's so young and still as so much more to do. Like I said I'm at a cross roads.
I ask that those that follow this or those that just read this please keep her and our family in your prayers, because that time could be coming, and it will be a very upsetting time for not only us but for those whose lives she's affected.
Thanks and God Bless
xoxo
T
Praying for you & your family. It's hard, I've been in your shoes with my dad, I felt selfish saying I wanted him here, he had to watch me grow up, but he was in so much pain, and wasnt the daddy I always knew. He wanted to be healthy and with us forever, but God had another plan for him, there were times I blamed God asking why he took my dad at a very young age, again thinking I was selfish. I know my dad is smiling down from heaven right next to my grandparents.
ReplyDeleteI will pray for you and your family Tina, let me know if there is anything you need!