One of those days

You ever have one of those days where you wake up and you're in a great mood, then through out the day your attitude and zeal for the day just dissipates???? Yeah that pretty much sums up my day. I was wide awake at 3:20am, which is most of the reason I believe. Anyways I saw my hubby off to work, messed around online for a few hours. Then took my father in law to the dentist, went and got some photography props, went and picked up our baby batman (a cat) from the vet. He's been there since this past Saturday with bladder trouble. Then came home ate some lunch, then Nathan got home. We both took a nap together which was really refreshing but even with the nap I still feel blah! I don't know what it is, and nothing has seemed to help my mood any, I'm not tired so I don't want to just toss and turn in bed because then Nathan won't sleep well. So I'm up writing this blog. I have a lot on my mind so I thought I'd share.


1. I love my husband to pieces, but today he has just not really made smart choices when it came to talking to me. He's a man, and I'm overly emotional on days like today. But he made a remark about how much money I was needing to spend for some more photography stuff and non-photography stuff. It really bummed me out because I know if I was working still we wouldn't have to stress about finances. I really can't wait until the first of the year so I can get a job, to help out too.


2. I'm tired of my current style mostly my hairstyle which I've pretty much had the same style since 2007. There was a couple years in between there where I did a short bob which let me tell ya...I do NOT pull off well at all! But I'm just wanting something new, and I can't figure out what to do, and I don't want to leave it up to the new stylist I'm going to start to go to tomorrow. So instead of deciding what to do by tomorrow, I'm just going to get a trim. Then once I figure out I'll go back and get it done. I'm going to my sweet friend Karrie's house tomorrow so she can help! I'm also wanting some new color, so I'll keep you posted on what the new look will be.


3. I'm really stressing and I know I shouldn't be. I'm stressing about how lousy I feel for not helping out with money, I'm stressing about batman. I really want him to get better and not have anymore problems. And most of all I'm stressing about this whole getting pregnant. I feel so much pressure to make it happen and happen fast. Because that's not only what I want, but it's what everyone wants now. Nathan, my siblings, my grandparents, his family. It's just stressful and upsetting. I know what I need to do, give it to God. Sometimes it's much easier said than done. Hmph!!


4. I'm frustrated because I feel like I'm pouring everything I have into my photography and it's still in stand by. I don't know if it's because it's the holiday season or what. But it's very frustrating!!


Ok I'm done ranting about my day. I pray and believe tomorrow will be 100% better. I also hope everyone has had a great Wednesday and hope everyone has a great rest of the week. =]


Stay Blessed


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